The day I first saw you up close, I couldn't believe how beautiful you were. You were wearing a black hoodie, a mask under your chin and chewing a gum. I couldn't believe how pretty you were... Ami haa kore takay chilam, ei shundor meye amr shathe kotha bole? look at us now, in love.

You sneaked out, and it was the craziest thing ever.

I was so nervous. I kept wondering whether you’d like the place, whether the food would be good enough, and whether everything would go the way I hoped.

I still remember you telling me that you don’t like people touching you or your hair. But that day, you let me play with your hair just a little. It made me feel so special.

Milkshake ta onek baje chilo, but part of me wishes we’d ordered another one anyway—just so we’d have an excuse to stay there a little longer.

You never told me what your first impression of me was. I guess that’s one question I’ll always be curious about.

THIS IS THE DAY I KNEW HOW MUCH ADVENTURE WE WERE GONNA HAVE TOGETHER.

The excitement, the adrenaline… everything about that day was just crazy.

And our first chumu. 😭 I’m literally blushing while writing this.

Ami always chaisilam toggy teh date e jete, tumi amr iccha ta fulfill korso, if only ariktu thakte partam? amr feeling ta bujhate parbo na but you gave me butterflies, Dhet.

Next stop… 300 Feet, courtside. After I get my car. 😘

This date went waaaay too smoothly.

And this was also the day you talked to my mom for the first time. 🥹

To think we actually did that in here is still crazy. We could’ve gotten caught and sent to jail. Fuckkk. 😂

Military Museum e shob theke precious tumi chila, tai tomr dikei takay chilam.

Please… let’s do it again, jaan. 

I love these adventures with you❤️

THIS DAY MEANT MORE TO ME THAN YOU’LL EVER KNOW. ❤️

You know what I couldn’t stop thinking about?

Marrying you!

That one day… it’ll be us.

My family, my friends… and you. Ufff. 😭❤️ Having everyone I love together in one place just made my heart so full.

Looking at these pictures, you weren’t just standing beside my family anymore.

You were part of it.

You really became family to me that day, jaan.

I can’t wait for the day we don’t have to imagine it anymore. I can’t wait for us to finally be together. 

I never told you this before… but I really miss you in my home and at the office. ❤️

The dining room. My room. Apu’r room. Ammu’r room…

Every time I look around, it feels like you’re sitting there somewhere.

At the office, when I look up from my chair, I still imagine you peeking out from Baba’s room with that little smile. 😭

And whenever I eat something nice or go somewhere new, you’re the person I wish was there with me.

I miss you in the smallest moments the most.

Tomake chara ekto-o thakte pari na ami.

Amar babu shona ta. 😘

Thank you for staying.

Thank you for understanding.

And thank you for loving me… even on the days I made it difficult.

Jaan, I know I haven’t been the best boyfriend lately. I know I haven’t given you enough time, and I know there were moments when I didn’t treat you the way you deserve. I’m really sorry.

Life has just felt so overwhelming. Between work, the business, and all the responsibilities around Apu’s wedding, it feels like my mind has been everywhere at once. But none of that changes how much you mean to me.

Just give me a little more time. I’m trying to get everything in order—for us, and for our future together.

Then you’ll be like, “Ei cheler kono kaj nai naki? Sharadin amar pichhonei ghure beray, shudhu jalaite thake!” 😂❤️

Just ektu dhorjo dhoro, babu. Ami shob guchacchi… tomar jonno.

And when I finally can, I’ll spend every chance I get making up for the time I couldn’t give you. I love you more than you’ll ever know. 😘

Well…

Ekhon ami tomake ar jete dibo na. 😌❤️

Hahahaha.

Jaan, I’m finally fixing my life. One step at a time.

I’m fixing myself, the business, and my relationship with my family. I’ve made up my mind.

You are my one and only.

Now, more than ever, I need you by my side. Help me build everything from scratch. Just wait and see how much potential we have together.

I dream about our future all the time.

Our own little apartment.

At least two kids…

A cat. 🐈? 

Movie nights, random late-night drives, arguing over what to eat, and growing old together.

And when we’re old and wrinkly

We’ll probably fall in love all over again.

And if we become ghosts…

We’ll annoy each other forever. 👻❤️

Tumi amar life-ta ekdom change kore diso. Amar chotobela theke ekta iccha chilo tomar moto ekta partner pawar. Ami 2022–2023 onek namaj and Tahajjud porsilam. Amar mon onek kharap chilo. Ami Allah-ke bolsilam,

"Allah, amake emon ekta partner den je amake bujhbe, amake bhalobashbe, amake hurt korbe na. Ami emon ekjon chai jar shathe ami mrityu porjonto thakbo."

Alhamdulillah, amar dua kobul hoise.

Tashfia Hossain Raima, I met you when I was 19, and I am 22 now. You are everything I ever dreamt of and prayed for. You make me happy, you take care of me, you love me, and I know you will never leave me.

Tumi ashar por, I changed as a person. I became more confident, I went on international trips, and my business is booming. I believe your dua for our future helped me achieve all of this.

I will never be able to express how much I love you. Never.

Ami actually onek introvert, and stress-e ami onek bhul decision nei. Ami jani ami tomake time dicchi na, but I'm trying my best to do things the halal way. Very soon, we will be halal for each other, Allah bhorosha. It's just a matter of time and patience.

Haram theke halal kora onek tough, but amar family aste aste raji hocche. They love you as they love me. I hope your family will love me too.

My love, my jaan, my kolija, my pakhi, my Tashfii, my Raima...

I have fallen in love with you. I am obsessed with you. My world revolves around you.

If you truly love me with all your heart, then let's make it halal after Ramadan.

I will pray nonstop during Ramadan for us.

Roja + Taraweeh + Tahajjud = Us. ❤️

I LOVEEE YOUUU, JAAN.